Friday, February 10, 2023

Extraordinary Sunday mornings

In the past, I pretty much knew what to expect on ordinary Sunday mornings, but since I joined the team at Inner City Pastoral Ministry in September of 2020, that has definitely changed. 

For example, this past Sunday, a large man who called himself "Big Bird" asked for a pen and some paper. "I'll write a poem, you'll see," he said. He spent a portion of our 45-minute service scribbling away on his knee, and just before it ended, he handed me his poem with the instruction, "read it for everyone to hear."

I scanned the poem quickly to be sure that it was suitable for public consumption, then got the okay from pastor Jim to read it at the microphone. People were very attentive. Though there was a slightly confusing reference to a "real bonspiel that can be surreal," Big Bird's poem was an encouragement for its listeners to take 
 
the unbeaten trail 
that will not fail 
to inevitably be 
our course of action... 
a way 
that will not lead us astray 
so that we may 
be actually there.

"Thank you for these words of inspiration, Big Bird, and for sharing them with us," pastor Jim said. The community applauded and Big Bird leapt to his feet, raising his victory-sign hands high in the air, pleased and proud that his poem had been heard and well-received.

After the service, Dan (not his real name) helped distribute Sunday's bag lunches because the communities that donated them were unable to send volunteers. Dan is a big, gentle guy, a regular at our Community of Emmanuel services and bible studies, and he was hugely helpful. Because he's from the neighbourhood, he knew a lot of the people waiting in line, easily identifying folks who needed their first lunch bag, and bypassing the ones who were reaching for seconds or thirds. 

"One lunch each, at least until most folks have one," Dan said, over and over, occasionally giving more to people that he knew were supporting family members who couldn't make it from their camps to us. Dan was a pro, ensuring that the little ladies who always want to feed half of Chinatown with our bag lunches took only one or two and moved along. They know and respect him, and he always treats them kindly but firmly. 

Every so often, Dan would hand a lunch bag or coffee to someone and, with false cheerfulness, announce, "I guess I won't be seeing you at 55 Club anymore. Operation Friendship is done and gone." Dan was trying to make light of yet another loss in a neighbourhood where loss is far too commonplace, but the disappointment, anger, and grief under his words left a lump in my throat. 

On the first of February, Operation Friendship Seniors' Society closed without warning after over 50 years of hospitality offered through its seniors' drop-in, 55 Club programs and activities, and affordable housing units. The press release cited vandalism, security issues, and underfunding as reasons for closure. "We didn't even see it coming," Dan lamented. All I could do was swallow hard and say "I'm so sorry, Dan."

Our mission statement for Inner City Pastoral Ministry says that we are an interdenominational Christian Ministry of Presence, and though we can never do enough to alleviate pain and struggle for the people who come to us, just "being there" with them is our primary focus. To listen. To help when we can. To encourage. To love.

And it's a huge privilege, too. Praying and singing together, sharing life's ups and downs, serving coffee and lunches, handing out donated winterwear, and just standing with community members in their moments of grief, pride, frustration, and joy -- or any other emotion you care to name -- makes every Sunday morning extraordinary.

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P.S. If you'd like to help with what we do, don't hesitate to contact me (email address on the sidebar), or click here for the ICPM website and more details or ways to donate.

Sunday, February 5, 2023

This little light of mine

Today's reflection is brought to you by 
Matthew 5:13-16.

Jim, the assistant pastor for the community of Emmanuel, is one for what I'll call hands-on-homilies. He often incorporates small items to be shared with community members into his sermons, and today was no exception. Everyone received a little ziplock containing a teaspoon of salt, and a birthday candle with a paper matchbook.

It's salt of the earth and light of the world Sunday, and we are all both of those, Jesus says in today's reading from Matthew's gospel -- but it requires some effort on our parts to give flavour and light to those around us. So at the end of this morning's service, we prayed with our lit candles:

You are the salt of the earth.
Sprinkle us across our community, God,
across our world,
to bring the good flavour of love
wherever we go.

You are the light of the world.
Uncover the radiance that is within us, God,
to shine the truth of your love
wherever we go.

Let your light shine before others
that everyone we meet
may see our lives of faithfulness
and glorify you,
our loving Creator.

+Amen

And Farley led us in the classic spiritual tune that Odetta and the Holmes Brothers sing so well in the video below. 

Have a good week being salt and light for all those you meet!

(And P.S. -- if you have a spare prayer for Eleanor, a friend and moodlings reader who is awaiting some very important surgery, it's most definitely appreciated!)


Monday, January 30, 2023

Monday Music Appreciation #2 -- and now for something completely different

At work at the Francis Winspear Centre for Music on Friday night, I was lucky to sit in on a viola concerto played by the Edmonton Symphony Orchestra strings section, with Clayton Leung giving a wonderful performance.

This video is not a viola concerto. But it's absolutely incredible all the same. In an effort not to spoil it for those who haven't run into 2CELLOS before, I'll only say that the performers are two very talented, classically trained Croatian cellists named Luka Sǔlić and Stjepan Hauser. Watch those fingers fly... and stay for the end if you can. It made me laugh with delight!

Sunday, January 29, 2023

A Sunday chant -- from Taizé

You might recall the beginning of the pandemic, and how uncertain everything was. Suddenly, the world as we knew it was forced to stop, and our lives were thrown up in the air for quite some time.

Like many, I didn't quite know how to respond, and my anxiety level went through the roof. In looking for something to calm my soul, I quickly turned to the Taizé Community, which was also forced to close itself off from outsiders. But even during the lockdown in France, the Brothers of the community found a way to reach out through broadcasting their prayer online every evening.

So for the first 82 days of the pandemic, I faithfully attended online prayer with the Brothers, getting to know the backs of their heads (hee hee), the sounds of their voices, their choice of seating in the rooms where they met, and many newer chants composed in the last few years. I was especially delighted to hear the brothers I met in 2016 read some of the scriptures and prayers -- it was a consolation to know that they were still there, praying with the 60 or 70 thousand of us from around the world who were joining them online.

Since then, the Brothers have gone back to one broadcast each week, and my online participation hasn't been at all regular. So -- no surprise -- somehow I missed this particular piece of music (maybe they didn't sing it at the pandemic's beginning?) But there it was, part of yesterday's evening prayer (which can be heard every Saturday afternoon (because of the seven-hour difference between France and here) on youtube -- https://www.youtube.com/@taize)

Gib mich ganz zu eigen dir is a gorgeous chant that was part of the International Meeting in Basel, Switzerland in December 2017, and its lyrics come from a prayer by St. Nicholas von Flue, who lived in the 1400s. The beautiful video below is from the Basel gathering's Saturday evening celebration of the Resurrection (hence the candles). Here's a translation of the lyrics that you can find on the Youtube page:

"Take everything from me that keeps me from you.
Give everything to me that brings me near to you.
My Lord and my God, take me away from myself and give me completely to you."


And here are the German lyrics you hear in the beautiful video above:

Nimm alles von mir, was mir fernhält von dir. Gib alles mir, was mich hinführt zu dir. Mein Herr und mein Gott, nimm mich mir und gib mich ganz zu eigen dir.

In the years since this version, the Taizé community has changed the lyrics from "Mein Herr und mein Gott" to Lebendiger Gott (Living God). 

As I'm not a German speaker, I've been singing a simplified English version to myself since I heard it yesterday, but I promise I will learn it in German as soon as I can. These English words don't exactly work with the melody, but they're not far off in case you want to try to sing along...

Take everything that keeps me from you.
Give everything that brings me to you.
O Living God,
take me away from myself
and give me completely to you...

For any local people who are interested, our next Ecumenical Prayer featuring the chants of the Taizé community will be on Sunday, February 12 at 7 pm at St. Thomas D'Aquin church (8410 89 Street) here in Edmonton. All are welcome!

Have a beautiful Sunday.

Thursday, January 26, 2023

Walking at Riverlot 56

As someone whose appreciation for nature is constant, I really loved the walk Lee, Suzanna, Shadow-dog, and I took on Sunday afternoon. We found our way out to Riverlot 56, a piece of provincial land east of St. Albert, not far from the St. Albert Municipal Cemetery, Poundmaker Lodge, and Nechi Institute. 

Riverlot 56 is a fairly big space with 6.6 km of looped trail, (to see webpage and map, click here) a good place for hiking, bird watching, and, as we noticed on Sunday, cross-country skiing. There's a guided family nature walk through the trees with periodic interpretive signs inviting kids to spot different kinds of animals, plants, or birds, with true or false questions that amused me (I was always falling behind because I wanted to read them). 

Dogs are allowed on leash at Riverlot 56, though there were a few people pretending it's an off-leash area. Shadow was not impressed, but he put up with it.

Lee, Suzanna, and Shadow were way out ahead of me at the bottom of a gully when Lee suddenly stopped and said, "There's a moose!" I didn't see him at first, but sure enough, there was a big bull just visible through the trees above us. As Riverlot 56 is close to the Sturgeon River that runs through St. Albert, I'm guessing there are many creatures who find it a quiet place to hang out.

It's not the best picture, but I didn't want to move any closer to Brother Moose, who was keeping an eye on us as he contentedly munched some of the underbrush. Maybe if you visit Riverlot 56 (or other places like it) you'll be lucky enough to spot him or one of his friends for yourself... I'd recommend it!

Monday, January 23, 2023

Monday music appreciation #1

Since Appreciation is my word of the year, I've decided to note things I appreciate here in my moodlings. And since music is one of the things in my life that really touches me (as if you haven't guessed that from just this past week's moodlings alone), I'm going with music appreciation Mondays, at least when I remember to or have the time.

There are a number of pieces of music vying for this Monday music appreciation spot at the moment, but I think I have to start with a classic, Tchaikovsky's Romeo and Juliet. It was part of an Edmonton Symphony Orchestra concert shift I worked at on Friday night, and the guest conductor, Yaniv Dinur (who was quite funny), made introductory comments that helped me to understand the music better. 

(Note: many symphony orchestras have struggled with whether or not to play Tchaikovsky's music given the genocide Russia is perpetrating in Ukraine right now, but there is evidence to suggest that Tchaikovsky himself was a victim of the Russian Regime of his time. For this reason, the Edmonton Symphony Orchestra has chosen to continue to play his music.)

Our conductor told us that Romeo and Juliet begins with a hymn-like theme to remind us of Shakespeare's Friar Lawrence (the go between for Romeo and Juliet), and moves to the clash (hear the swordplay?) between the Montagu and Capulet families. Then we hear one of the most famous romantic themes in classical music, followed by reminders of further clashes and a bit of funeral march before the romantic music returns, with a sadder ending, of course.

If you're buzzing about this week as I am, with many things to do, perhaps you might like to let this play in the background -- or, if you have time, plug in some headphones and let it flow through you, as symphony concerts are meant to do. (I like this BBC video for its movement between different London Symphony Orchestra musicians, and the obvious workout being put in by them and Maestro Valery Gergiev. For me it's worth watching, as I'm always fascinated by how orchestra members work together to create beauty, from tiny piccolos to tubas to tympani drums -- if only everyone in the world worked this way!) 

Either way you might choose to listen, enjoy!

Sunday, January 22, 2023

A Sunday song to speak to us all

Somewhere in the past week, I heard someone say something to the effect that Jesus called fishermen to follow him because he needed a getaway vehicle now and then, you know, to have a break from all that healing and teaching and arguing with scribes and pharisees. 

But today, Quinn, our fearless leader at Inner City Pastoral Ministry, talked about the calling of those fishermen being parallel to God's loving call to each one of us, and Quinn played the song Out of Hiding by Steffany Gretzinger and Amanda Cook.

Through this song, God says to each of us, "I'll be your lighthouse when you're lost at sea. I will illuminate everything..." and a lot of other beautiful messages. 

I love to hear new God songs like this one. And I really love it when they touch our downtown people. I saw a few of them wiping away the tears when they thought no one was watching, and that only added to the moisture in my own eyes. 

We are all so deeply loved. Isn't that something?

Friday, January 20, 2023

How can we rise up?

Yesterday our Inner City Pastoral Ministry Bible study on the Grandparent Teachings wrapped up with the final teaching of Love. We always get into good, deep discussions at Bible study and run out time before we run out of insights. 

Somewhere in the time leading up to yesterday's study, our leader, Pastor Jim, ran across this old Bruce Springsteen song, My City of Ruins, and brought the lyrics for us (thank you, Jim). They fit really well with our morning conversation about how important it is to love ourselves so that we can love each other, especially in challenging times. And in these challenging times, some communities are in ruins when people aren't properly cared for, so we are called to rise up.

I couldn't remember Springsteen's melody, so I came home and looked it up, and found this video where The Boss is singing to some of the people of New Orleans about a year after Hurricane Katrina. It moved me, especially after walking among the tents and tarps of downtown Edmonton. My City of Ruins leaves me asking myself, what else can I do with these hands? How can we as a society rise up so that change comes? How do we start a groundswell of love in action? Comments are welcome.

Sing it, Bruce!

Sunday, January 15, 2023

Another good Sunday song

Farley has sung this song at Community of Emmanuel many times, but for some unknown reason, it touched me at a deeper level today. 

I wanted to share all four verses of Rita Springer's haunting melody that are printed in the ICPM songbooks, but this is the only video recording that I could find, with only the first and last verse. Perhaps the other verses came along after the recording was made? I've put all the lyrics we sing at Community of Emmanuel below this video so you can sing them for yourselves. A blessed Sunday to you!


Make me a prayer, let my prayer be a cry.
Humble my heart, so that you may draw nigh.
Cause me to stand and cry out for this land,
Cause me to be one who's set free
to stand as a house of prayer.

Make me a cup, your love spilled out through me.
Pour out my heart, let your people be free.
Cause me to share my heart and to care,
Cause me to be one who's set free,
who stands as a chalice of love.

Make me a flame, that your light may so shine.
Ignite my heart, let me blaze in the dark.
Cause me to burn my life for your word,
Cause me to be one who's set free,
who stands as a beacon in the night.

Make us a prayer, let our prayers be a cry.
Humble our hearts so that you may draw nigh.
Cause us to stand and cry out for this land,
Cause us to be a people set free,
to stand as a house of prayer.

Wednesday, January 11, 2023

2023 Word of the Year

Those who follow these moodlings know that I like to choose a word at the beginning of every year as something of a theme on which to focus as the months hurry past. 

In rereading last year's moodling about my Word of the Year, I had to chuckle. I lost that thread of inspiration at about the time the dark days moved back into the light, and my friend Garth returned not long after. I did enjoy most of my Partylite candles, however!

Having reached the end of 2022 and having to go back through my moodlings to remember the word I chose last January, I had to ask myself: is there really any point to choosing a Word of the Year? 

Answer: of course there is -- I just need to be more intentional about actually remembering it (though I sometimes find it challenging to remember what happened the day before yesterday, already!) And 2023's Word of the Year is one I'm determined to remember.

Ready?

APPRECIATION. That's what I want to focus on this year.

Why?

Well, because in the past year, as I've gotten more and more involved in the ministry of presence for folks in the inner city, I've seen a lot of dark stuff. It's become too easy to feel sad and angry about the fact that there are humanitarian crises across the river or down our local ravine, never mind hidden in some of the poorly-maintained rental units within walking distance of my own comfy home. 

I bumped into a neighbour this morning and we got to talking about the 49,000 people struggling with core housing need in Edmonton, and when I mentioned how we need all levels of government to step up and work together to build a lot more affordable housing, she laughed and said, "yeah, right."

Housing is only one issue. I'm sure you can think of a dozen others. The problem is that it's just too easy to get cynical when faced with so many challenges and the seeming lack of political will to solve problems. I feel that cynicism in myself, too. So that's why I decided to focus on Appreciation (many thanks to my friend Jim for his New Year's reflection). 

And just in the nick of time, too. This morning when we arrived downtown to hand out socks, gloves and other winterwear, this is what greeted us.


They had come to dismantle the tarp/tent homes of people in the neighbourhood. Quinn (standing on the corner, shaking his head) captured it well when he said, "This is too crazy. They take it down now, and tonight it will be back because these people have nowhere else to go." People were dragging their belongings out of their shelters and piling them up wherever they could, just waiting for the cops and workers to "clean up" and leave. 

There's nothing like destabilizing the only stability people have had for the last couple of weeks in this chilly winter weather.

But we've seen this many times, and because we couldn't do anything about the inhumanity of the situation (other than being active members of the Edmonton Coalition on Housing and Homelessness and standing witness as the team from Inner City Pastoral Ministry), we focused on the people who came to our little table for the winterwear donations given to us by kind and generous people -- and we also witnessed the kindness and generosity of community members to each other even as their homes were being taken apart.

One fellow sat amid his pile of belongings on an ancient blanket-covered chair, cracking jokes (to lift peoples' spirits?) He pulled a rubber band out of a garbage bag and announced that he'd found ten thousand dollars in it, then asked a passer-by, "Would you like this rubber band that held all that money?" He was non-stop with his wisecracks.

One young woman came to our necessities table and asked for ladies' briefs, quietly telling me that she was having her "lady time." I dug around under the mens' socks and found the last two for her. She was tucking them into her pocket as another girl arrived, saying, "I'd really like a fresh pair of underwear if you have it." I told her she'd just missed the last two, but of course, the young woman who had just received them dug into her pocket and gave one to the girl who'd asked. Just like that.

People look out for each other all the time, and I appreciate that. Sometimes I even remember to say so.

But not as often as I should.

So my 2023 Word of the Year is chosen to remind me to voice my appreciation in situations where I find myself marveling at the beauty, goodness and truth of this world, and the kindness and goodness of human beings. Especially those who receive more complaints than pats on the back, those who are often overlooked. 

And I need not only to voice appreciation, but to properly appreciate. To really look at, listen to, smell, taste, touch and reflect upon life rather than just letting it pass me by. And to do things to show my appreciation, to make others aware of things, creation, and people worth appreciating whenever possible.

What's your word or focus for 2023?

Sunday, January 1, 2023

A prayer for 2023

Happy New Year, friends!

This morning at the Community of Emmanuel, Pastor Jim shared a beautiful prayer that he wrote, and I asked him if I could share it here. Gracious fellow that he is, he agreed.

God of all times and places and beings,
as a new year begins,
keep us aware of the road we are called to walk,
a road where we
   welcome outcasts and refugees,
   heal a broken planet,
   feed the hungry,
   build bridges of trust, not walls of fear,
   share our gifts,
   seek justice and peace for all people,
   and bring Christ's light to the world. 
+Amen.
                                    -- Jim Gurnett

His sermon this morning, about the road we walk starting in this new year, used the word WALK as an acronym for how we can move through the year in God's presence. I loved this idea, and am sure he won't mind me sharing it as well:

W -- we walk in Wonder
A -- we walk in Appreciation
L -- we walk knowing that we are Linked to all other beings, and 
K -- we walk giving Kindness wherever we can along the way.

My prayer is that we all walk through the year 2023 in this good way!

Sunday, December 25, 2022

New Year's Letter 2023

Sacred Bond by James Neafsey,
a favourite image of mine
that can be found if you click here.

Happy New Year, friends far and near!

Hope you’ve had a Christmas break blessed with the presence of family and friends. We’re back from Christmas with Lee's Dad in Lethbridge, just celebrated Ukrainian Christmas with my family here, and as usual, I’m late with my greetings! How did 2022 treat you? Here are a few highlights for us:

January – Volunteering Sunday mornings at the Community of Emmanuel's worship services and reopening to allow people to actually come in after a long Covid stretch of handing coffee and lunch bags out the door to folks on the streets. Finishing basement suite renovations where our nephew, Iain, is staying as he completes his engineering degree.

February – Hanging out with my sisters and watching Hallmark movies as mental health required. Hiking and walking with friends. Holding small, masked rallies to support health care workers, and mostly avoiding convoys with Christina, Landon, and friends.  

March -- Returning to work (masked) at the Francis Winspear Centre for Music (my dream job!) two years and eight days after my last 2020 shift when Covid began. 

April – Warmer weather and walking to a local coffee shop with Suzanna (who recently moved back home -- rent is cheaper here). Helping Pastor Quinn save a life with Naloxone/Narcan. Lee feeling happy that the Hydrogen Centre of Excellence he worked on for the previous year was announced and is underway.

May – Working with Lee to convert more of our lawn to garden and sharing the remainder of a huge load of free wood chips with family and friends. More of that coming in 2023. Gardening experiment this year was growing asparagus from seed (we should get to eat some in two years if we're lucky). 

June – Taking Lee's 90-year-old Dad on a trip down memory lane (to Vancouver Island and back) with brother-in-law, Les, and enjoying visits with relatives there. Lee happily transitioning to full-time at Innotech Alberta after a 16-month secondment there from the Government of Alberta.

July – Growing a pretty good garden (and almost too many tomatoes). Taking Suzanna and Jay to see “Hamilton.”  Giving our pear tree a serious haircut (took three Saturdays) to try to save it from fire blight (fingers still crossed).   Having the Pope living 2 blocks away (holy security, Batman!)

August – Golfing with my folks and sisters at Spur Valley, BC, and canoeing with Mom from Invermere to Radium. Saying goodbye to Auntie Mary, my other godmother, and seeing Prediger and Stang cousins at the celebrations of her life in Alberta and Saskatchewan. 

September – Celebrating Christina's 9-year Bachelor of Arts degree. Singing Taizé music in person again. Attending an International Healing of Memories workshop and meeting some people I will never forget. Good autumn dog walks with Shadow, who is 10 and slowing down.

October – Meeting some of the many kind and generous people who provide 200 bagged lunches every Sunday of the year for Inner City Pastoral Ministry. Receiving Murchie's Tea deliveries from the coast after Jay's trips there (thanks Jay!)  

November – Getting the garden under wraps just an hour before the snow came (many thanks to Lee’s brother, Louis!) Flying to Vancouver Island (aka Hallmark Christmas movie land) to catch up on the missing pieces of the past three years with my best friend, Cathy (amazing how much never gets said on the phone!)

December – Succeeding in finding a condo home for Lee’s youngest sibling, Lynn (move-in date mid-January, we hope).  A much-needed spiritual retreat with Ron Rolheiser. Hearing amazing Christmas concerts at the Winspear and enjoying friendships that have developed there. Celebrating with family.

It's hard to imagine the highlights coming in 2023. Completion of Landon's Master's degree in Community Engagement, for sure. Retirement for Lee? I’ll believe it when I see it. 

A visit from friends far and near would definitely be a highlight -- you're always welcome at our kitchen/picnic table. And if Edmonton is too far to come but you feel like connecting in a different way, my writings here at www.simplemoodlings.blogspot.com can drop into your inbox occasionally if you put your email address in the box on the right sidebar (where the words “Get Simple Moodlings by Email (easy peasy)” appear).

In the meantime, we wish you and yours a wonderful New Year. May you be blessed with good health, happiness, and just enough that you can share with those in need.

Hugs, and peace on earth to people of good will!

Saturday, December 17, 2022

Hey, you missed a few!

It's been a busy Advent this year, making it hard to get to moodling here. But I have a sweet story that I've been thinking about all week.

Last Sunday, the 3rd Sunday of Advent, two fellows I had never seen before joined us for Sunday morning liturgy at the Community of Emmanuel. Or maybe I had seen them before, but many of our community are irregular in attendance, coming and going depending on their circumstances.

These two came in last minute and sat toward the back of the room, chatting with each other, clearly friends who were happy to come in from the cold and have a cup of coffee together. I wasn't really aware of them at first, busy as I was greeting people, singing the Magnificat to the tune of Wild Mountain Thyme, and supporting Farley in his music ministry during our weekly service.

It wasn't until we were into the Eucharistic Prayers that one of the fellows decided that something was wrong with the Advent Wreath and its three lit candles. In his assessment, the fourth candle and the white Christmas candle in the middle had gone out and needed to be relit. The two buddies conferred and one came forward as Quinn was praying, took the rose Advent candle, and lit the two remaining candles. Satisfied that he'd made things right, he turned around and headed back to his seat. He didn't see Quinn promptly blow out the two he'd lit.

When the candle-lighter got back to his seat, he looked back toward his handiwork and did a double take -- there were still only three candles lit. Huh? He looked bewildered. But his buddy waved him on to go make things right, so he got up and tried a second time. He picked up the rose candle, lit the last purple one and was going for the white Christmas candle when Quinn reached out and gently took the rose candle from him, saying, "We don't light those two yet."

I stepped forward and whispered a quick explanation about how the Advent wreath's four candles are lit on four different Sundays leading up to Christmas, and it was only the Third Sunday so far. "Oh, my bad," the fellow replied, looking sheepish, and I said, "It's okay, you didn't know, and you were only trying to help."

Later on, I saw him and his friend outside, and we had a little conversation about the Advent Wreath and the Mother of Jesus being everyone's mom, which made him happy because he misses his own mom. I invited him to join us for the lighting of candles for the next two weeks. If he comes, I hope we can get him to light those last two candles for us. I'll be watching for him!

A blessed last week of Advent to you all!

Thursday, December 1, 2022

How to give thanks

It's been at least two years since I first ran into the Haudenosaunee Thanksgiving Address in Robin Wall Kimmerer's wonderful book, Braiding Sweetgrass: Indigenous Wisdom, Scientific Knowledge and the Teachings of Plants (Minneapolis, Minnesota: Milkweed Editions 2013, ISBN978-1-57131-356-0). The Thanksgiving Address is a wonderful expression of gratitude for all created beings in our world, a deep wisdom that is frequently voiced by Indigenous communities. 

The Thanksgiving Address is made up of the Words Before All Else -- which means that nothing should be said to start a day or a meeting of people or any kind of community event until we "join our minds as one" and give thanks for all that we have received. This little video explains it quite beautifully.

I've been thinking a lot about gratitude lately, and -- no surprise -- after a period of having forgotten about it, I find that the Haudenosaunee Thanksgiving Address has reappeared in my life all over the place in just the last few days. Just in the nick of time, as we head into the biggest season of consumption. I know better than to think it's just coincidence. 

If you have not heard of the Thanksgiving Address yet, here's a link to a beautiful website that shares it just a small piece at a time, with gorgeous art to accompany the words. I invite you to savour the Words Before All Else at whatever part of the day in which you find yourself right now, and realize the many gifts we have received, and that really, most of us are fortunate enough that we don't need to go out and buy more stuff.

All the gifts we have freely received are enough -- and they are no coincidence, either.

Monday, November 28, 2022

Movie Time!

I know, you're probably getting tired of me writing about homelessness, but I promise, this will be the last such post for a while...

Last Tuesday, I had the opportunity to see an excellent presentation at one of our local theatres. Maybe some of you did too, because I moodled about it last month. This Is Where We Live is a film by local film maker, Eric Rice, who visited people with experiences of homelessness in Edmonton's inner city. 

Eric interviewed them and came up with monologues from the stories they told -- which he took back to them so they could have the final say on what would be said. Actors were then hired to do the storytelling, and the result is an excellent and thought-provoking short film.

It will be shown on Zoom at noon MST tomorrow, and in case you're interested and available to watch at that time, the film maker has given me permission to share the link. I'm hoping to see it again myself. 

https://us06web.zoom.us/j/88223914789?pwd=UVBpdmNELzdsZU5vWGFFL3hrTkJ6dz09

For too many of us, homelessness is an issue, rather than actual people, but films like this help us to realize that losing our homes can happen to any one of us, that there's a fine line between living in warmth and security and living in a tent. All it takes is a divorce, a death, a disease, unemployment, or some other momentary or momentous misfortune -- and life changes, sometimes drastically. 

And as our temperatures plunge this week, it's time to give some thought to what we can do to help. A call or letter to local, provincial and federal ministries of housing has never been more important. As the panel discussion after the movie made clear, we need ALL levels of government working TOGETHER to solve our present social housing crisis.

I hope you'll consider checking out this film, dear readers. It's worth it.

Friday, November 25, 2022

Buy Nothing Day = Black Friday avoidance

I almost got sucked in this year. Almost. My inbox held a "Black Friday 15% off!" email from a company that I deal with on a regular basis for supplies, some of which are presently in need of replacement.

What stopped me? The words BLACK FRIDAY. To me, those words have become synonymous with the desire for too much. Excess. And now Black Friday is synonymous with my personal desire for less, not more.

Black Friday is the name of the consumer free-for-all that begins the day after American Thanksgiving, the day when many businesses offer consumers deals in an effort to move their profit margin ledgers from red into black ink for the year. And the more they make, the better they like it.

The problem is that many of the companies who use Black Friday sales strategies have bought into the idea that profits must grow year after year in spite of the fact that constant economic growth can lead to societal and environmental destruction, just like too much constant growth in the human body is known as cancer. Big corporations can offer discounts that small entrepreneurs can't hope to compete with, and the public buys in. Small businesses go bankrupt, the rich get richer, and I'm sure we've all seen coverage of Black Friday madness from the past. Now it's just moved online, and the stuff that's ordered online and rejected/returned too often ends up in our landfills.

It all breaks my heart -- this insistence on jumping from the Feast of Gratitude into the frenzy of consumerism. That's why I love Buy Nothing Day so much. It's a day to stop and reflect on all that we do have instead of all that we don't. To consider other kinds of gifts than the material ones Black Friday pushers want us to buy. To think about reducing our consumption for the sake of creation and future generations. To live simply, so that others may simply live.

I know that Christmas is coming. But this old poster from the now defunct Buy Nothing Christmas organization still makes me smile.


There are better ways to celebrate Christmas, for sure. If you want some ideas, I have many on my Simple Christmas Ideas page (click here). If I had the time, I'd revisit one a day for the next 31 days. But that ship sailed once (10 years ago, now how is that possible?), and they're still pretty relevant. Besides, I have many other things to do in the coming Advent Season that I love so much, including Simple Christmas Idea #12 for my kids.

But I'll start into it all by buying nothing on this Buy Nothing Day/Week. Join me? 

And I'll re-moodle this: 

Black Friday Prayer (2016)

How much did we pay
to see a new day?
It's a gift.

A breath of air? Free.
But we often don't see
it's a gift.

A life lived in peace,
the warmth of our beds,
the food on our table.
the roof o'er our heads.
all gift.

But 
through no fault of their own
many children have grown
to adulthood with
less than they need...
Still, some go out in haste
to add to the waste
of our earth
through insatiable greed.


Too oft we are told
"with the first one sold
the second is half price."
O God, help us see
that your best gifts are free
and settle for our given slice.

Remind us, O God,
that it's not for sale --
your beautiful creation.
It's already ours,
to be cared for and loved
and saved for the next generation.

Our sense of possession
was not your intention
because Everything is gift!

Teach us how
to remember it now 
and always.

+Amen

Friday, November 18, 2022

Angel seeks a home

When my mother-in-law was dying, she told me that she wanted me to have the angel that sat near her bedside. Knowing Angel meant something to her, I was touched. 

Angel is actually a large Christmas tree ornament with fiber-optic filaments that light up her wings in different, rotating colours. Every evening, Mom would ask someone to light "Angel", admire her multi-coloured splendor, and say her prayers. Knowing how much she appreciated Angel, I agreed to give her a home when Mom was gone.

But... Angel has lived in various corners of my home for the almost two years since Mom died, and I'm afraid she's not being appreciated here very often. I guess I'm just not a very sentimental soul when it comes to other peoples' keepsakes. Angel is much too big to sit atop the little Christmas trees that we decorate each year, and it's rare that I light her up for sheer appreciation's sake. 

So I offered Grandma's Angel to her grandchildren, but it seems no one is interested. And with our daughter moving home last weekend, the space where Angel used to sit (and gather dust) has vanished. So it's time to give Angel to someone who will truly appreciate her, perhaps as my mother-in-law did.

If you know anyone like that, or have other ideas of where Angel might be appreciated properly, please let me know!

Thursday, November 17, 2022

Shadow's tenth winter

It's a marshmallow world out there, and Shadow-dog is not impressed. It's his tenth-eleventh winter already (well, he'll be ten years old at the end of January) and he's never liked snow much, being more like a cat than a dog in many ways. Cuddling is cool, cold weather is not!

Trying to get him to go for a winter walk can be a challenge, especially on grey days. And it's something of an effort, too -- first, to get him to come out of his cosy bed and make his way to the back door (liver treats sometimes help), then to get him into his boots, leash harness, and winter coat (over his cozy blue sweater). 

Then he stands there looking like he wishes he was back in the land of his ancestors (Havanese are descendants of the dogs that once belonged to Cuban royalty), and who can blame him? If I could teleport to a beach near Havana, I probably would.

Considering dog years, he's officially been a senior citizen for quite some time already, and honestly, there are days I can relate. His back end isn't as perky as it used to be when getting up off the couch, and I did something to my hip this morning while running to the bus. Ouch.

It's been quite a while since I've taken Shadow on a 5 km walk, as it's probably time to have mercy on his (probably) achy little body. But it's just not the same walking without him -- he's motivated me to get out and go for the past almost ten years. Suddenly my own walks are shorter to accommodate him. And would I go for a long walk without him? Only with a friend. Or maybe I need to start listening to Ebooks/podcasts to make solitary walks more interesting?

Shadow is less of a walking companion now, and more of a meditation buddy. He climbs out of bed to come snuggle with me every morning as I settle in for tea and prayer time. And perhaps that's actually more important at this stage... we're both getting older, moving toward the winter of life, Shadow and I. But we're still doing things together.

Tuesday, November 8, 2022

Thanks, I needed that!

How are you doing these days? 

Me, I've been feeling the weight of the world a bit too much.

So when my sister sent me this video this morning, I thanked her, and immediately decided to share it with you, too. Music has a way of lifting us up, and it's been too long since I've offered any here. Time to remedy that!

Have a happy day!

Wednesday, November 2, 2022

Let it snow?

My moodling for the past few weeks has mostly been in my head as I've been busy with the last of the garden produce and cleaning up before winter. 

The greenhouse is ready for spring, more or less...

(The last of the basil will be used in a tomato salad
for Lee's birthday supper tonight)...

Suzanna turned our big pumpkin into a wonderful
jack o'lantern...
He was baked yesterday for future soups
and Shadow's favourite --
peanut butter-pumpkin puppy treats...

The garden beds are empty
(Lee dug the carrots last weekend)...
and his brother, Louis, who is visiting,
helped me to dig and cover the last beds yesterday.
We finished at 4, and it started snowing at about 5!
And this is what I see today...

I'm grateful that the snow held off until the garden got put to bed... but I'm very concerned about all the homeless folks still living in tents in our city. Quinn and I were downtown yesterday, passing out the usual granola bars and toiletries, and the first of winterwear donations. Shelter spaces for outside folks were supposed to be ready for November 1st, but we've heard nothing yet about where our downtown friends are supposed to go.

My garden is happy under this snow, but people aren't. I've written my city councilors, but they're running out of funds. It's the province and feds who need to cough up some more support now, so Danielle, Justin, and friends will be hearing from me too... 

In the meantime, if anyone has cash donations for socks, gloves or long underwear (or some of these most-requested items) to pass along, I can get them to people who need it!

Wednesday, October 19, 2022

This Is Where We Live

I've been learning a lot lately about the affordable housing crisis in Canada. After the Great Wars, we had a series of governments that made investments in social and affordable housing, but since the 80s, almost nothing has been done. As a result, a lot of the subsidized housing for people living on the poverty line has become run down and less than suitable for habitation even as rental fees increase. 

Our governments throw around a lot of big numbers when it comes to talking about their investments in affordable housing, but what many people don't realize is that those are often past years' numbers on repeat, while housing needs continue to increase year by year. The rising number of homeless people on our streets is indicative of our governments' failure to actually invest in housing for those living on the margins over the last 30+ years. It seems they prefer to throw money at temporary shelters in the winter! 

What governments forget is that people with permanent roofs over their heads don't require the vast amounts of taxpayer funds that homeless folks do when it comes to shelters, mental health and addictions treatment, basic medical care, and wrap-around services.

If a society's success is based on how well it treats its most vulnerable citizens, a walk around our downtown core indicates that ours is far from successful. 

Local filmmaker Eric Rice has put together what promises to be a powerful little movie of re-enacted interviews with people living on the streets here in Edmonton. It's showing at the Garneau Theatre on the National Housing Day of Action, Tuesday, November 22 at 7 p.m. It will be followed with a panel discussion. Tickets are $10 in advance, at This-Is-Where-We-Live.eventbrite.com, with funds supporting the work of the Edmonton Coalition on Housing and Homelessness (ECOHH).

If you're in the Edmonton area, I hope to see you there. And if you want to help me promote this event, leave a comment in the box below. Thanks!

Sunday, October 16, 2022

God is ecumenical

Here's a definition of ecumenical, according to Merriam-Webster:

ec·​u·​men·​i·​cal | \ ˌe-kyə-ˈme-ni-kəl  -kyü- \

Definition of ecumenical

1aof, relating to, or representing the whole of a body of churches
bpromoting or tending toward worldwide Christian unity or cooperation
2worldwide or general in extent, influence, or application

Of course, if we're talking about God, who isn't just focused on Christians, definition #2 is the better choice. God is all of those #2 things!

As a cradle Catholic, I absorbed the somewhat divisive mindset that we Catholics had a direct line to God -- well, more direct than anybody else because of Jesus and all that apostolic tradition, or so we liked to think. Of course, it took a while for me to understand that all sorts of other spiritual traditions were around for millennia before Jesus, and that they also held the beauty, goodness, and truth that is God's. Faith in God is "worldwide or general in extent, influence or application," indeed.

Fortunately, I had lots of little ecumenical experiences as I grew up -- starting with having friends who weren't Catholic -- or even Christian. Each of those experiences taught me more about other versions of God's goodness, truth, and beauty, broadening my understanding. I was also fortunate to be surrounded by adults who, for the most part, weren't black and white thinkers, and didn't discourage me from learning about the faith of others, or sharing my faith with them. 

The only big problem was that my friends weren't allowed to partake fully in the meal of thanksgiving shared in my church because they hadn't converted to Catholicism. For me, this has always made very little sense, because God knows our hearts and works in each of us in different ways -- why should we all have to believe exactly the same way before sharing a eucharistic meal? At my present Sunday community, the Community of Emmanuel in the inner city, no one is turned away, and the embrace of God is real. I often walk into God's embrace with tears trickling down my cheeks. No one should ever be excluded!

When a friend invited me to help her lead Taizé prayer in Edmonton some 30 years ago, I found an ecumenical home that seemed to fit. And when I walked into the Church of Reconciliation in the Community of Taizé in June of 2014, I found myself on my knees, in tears of joy because the holiness/wholeness of the place was tangible. Even the Syrian Muslim refugees staying with the Brothers at the time prayed with us and ate of the beautiful, fresh, delicious bread of morning eucharist. I wallowed in the Spirit of ecumenism in a church that was home for everyone regardless of their belief, found deep communion in a bible study with a group of strangers whose beliefs were somewhat different than mine, and came away more ecumenical than capital C Catholic, I'm afraid.

Since then, participation in Taizé prayer has become even more meaningful to me. When Covid shut the world and our churches down in March 2020, the Community of Taizé held a prayer broadcast every night via their Facebook Page or Youtube channel, and the online community attended by the tens of thousands (me included, 83 days running). The community continues to broadcast prayer daily and weekly, a blessing for those who want to pray in that beautiful place but can't visit in person.

Faith is faith, and God loves it in all of us. If you are ecumenically inclined and live in the Edmonton area, I invite you to come and pray one Sunday evening per month with our local Taizé community (see poster below). All are welcome. Bring friends!



Thursday, October 13, 2022

Ukraine in our hearts and souls

News from Ukraine is, too often, heartbreaking. I cheered when the Kerch Strait Bridge in Crimea was put out of commission (a prayer for the brave truck driver...) but realized retaliation was coming too. And the reaction of the perpetrators of this war has been to create further devastation, though the people of Ukraine continue to stand as strong as they can under the barrage. All we can hope and pray for seems to be a miraculous change of heart for the perpetrators, and continuing blessings and courage for the people of Ukraine as they live through hell on earth.

I'm sure we all know people who are affected by this, who have loved ones in Ukraine to worry about. So when I received an email from Irena asking me to promote a concert in support of Ukraine, I decided to share the information here, and wherever else I can. As Irena noted, the guardian angels of the Ukrainian people must be exhausted, so a little prayer, love, and fundraising here is something we can do to keep Ukraine and its people in our hearts and souls...


I leave you with a video that Irena sent of a song/prayer that will be sung at the October 29th concert, "A Ukrainian Prayer" by John Rutter. Powerful music that I hope to hear in person... maybe I'll see you there.

Monday, October 10, 2022

Giving thanks

Yesterday at Community of Emmanuel, during our Sunday Thanksgiving service, I was suddenly struck by the strongest sense of gratitude for the community's presence in my life. 

For the blessing of a sage smudge to start the service.

For Jake, who shares small snippets from his life -- this week, his frustration at having to buy a construction safety hat for a job that only lasted a day and only paid three hours.

For Mary-Joy, whose well-worn bible is a constant presence -- and reference.

For Bruce, who brings coffee to Lydia, one of our 90+ year old matriarchs, when he gets his own tea.

For Sister Florence, whose gentle, listening presence and smile is a calming influence for our community.

For Henry, who sometimes falls asleep on the counter where he sits.

For Annie, coffee-maker extraordinaire, who knows everyone and watches out for us all.

For Mary-Lou, who has more go than the energizer bunny when it comes to serving coffee.

For Farley, his philosophical wisdom and soothing music.

For Michelle, whose Standing Stones services and sharing of Indigenous wisdom always have me nodding my head in affirmation of teachings older than Christianity.

For Jim, who keeps an eye on the front door in case of latecomers or people in need.

For Quinn and his un-wordy liturgies that collect all our prayers simply and beautifully.

For simple communion, offered to all, no questions asked.

For volunteers who help us pass out the second communion of coffee and lunch bags after the service.

In looking around and appreciating all these folks, I got choked up and lost my voice for the last couple of lines to the hymn that closed the service:

I will go Lord, if you lead me. I will hold your people in my heart.

There is so much to be thankful for in my life -- my parents, sisters, husband, kids, friends, my dream job at the Winspear Centre for music (Friday night's performance was incredible!), our garden, our home, good health, the list goes on.

But in struggling with the church of my childhood and its exclusivity over the last few years, I was deeply moved by the people of the Community of Emmanuel at the end of Sunday's service, and deeply grateful for how Creator led me to this place that has welcomed me so deeply. 

Thank you, God, for everything.

+Amen

P.S. What are you grateful for today?

Tuesday, October 4, 2022

A bit of irresistible Francis lore

If you've been around these moodlings for any length of time, you'll know I have a special appreciation for St. Francis of Assisi, whose feast day we celebrate today. He's the patron saint of animals, simplicity, and ecology, and the founder of the Franciscan community that some of my favourite people are part of. 

Looking back over 12 years of Simple Moodlings (yup, I missed another Moodle-versary on September 19th, oh well), I see frequent mentions of St. Francis among them, too many to list here.

But I can't resist re-moodling this link to my favourite bit of St. Francis lore (I wish I was the genius who wrote it) -- God and St. Francis talk about lawns.

And I'll leave you all with a simple prayer that I think he would have liked. St. Francis addressed Brother Sun and Sister Moon like ordinary people, and I suspect he would have spoken to Father Sky and Mother Earth, too, and resonated with Indigenous spirituality as a whole.

We prayed this prayer at our Standing Stones service at Community of Emmanuel this past Sunday, a simple prayer that includes sky, earth, and the four directions. It's a wonderful way to wrap up the Month of Creation:

O Father Sky,
Hear us and make us strong.
O Mother Earth,
Hear us and give us support.
O Spirit of the East,
Send us your wisdom.
O Spirit of the South,
May we tread your path of life.
O Spirit of the West,
May we always be ready for the long journey.
O Spirit of the North,
Purify us with your cleansing winds.

Hiy Hiy, Amen.